Monday, February 9, 2026

East Prussia Widow

This story was referred to in my previous post, I thought I'd post the whole story that President Monson shared in his talk called "Be of Good Cheer":

In about March 1946, less than a year after the end of the war, Ezra Taft Benson, then a member of the Quorum of the Twelve, accompanied by Frederick W. Babbel, was assigned a special postwar tour of Europe for the express purpose of meeting with the Saints, assessing their needs, and providing assistance to them. Elder Benson and Brother Babbel later recounted, from a testimony they heard, the experience of a Church member who found herself in an area no longer controlled by the government under which she had resided.

She and her husband had lived an idyllic life in East Prussia. Then had come the second great world war within their lifetimes. Her beloved young husband was killed during the final days of the frightful battles in their homeland, leaving her alone to care for their four children.

The occupying forces determined that the Germans in East Prussia must go to Western Germany to seek a new home. The woman was German, and so it was necessary for her to go. The journey was over a thousand miles (1,600 km), and she had no way to accomplish it but on foot. She was allowed to take only such bare necessities as she could load into her small wooden-wheeled wagon. Besides her children and these meager possessions, she took with her a strong faith in God and in the gospel as revealed to the latter-day prophet Joseph Smith.

She and the children began the journey in late summer. Having neither food nor money among her few possessions, she was forced to gather a daily subsistence from the fields and forests along the way. She was constantly faced with dangers from panic-stricken refugees and plundering troops.

As the days turned into weeks and the weeks to months, the temperatures dropped below freezing. Each day, she stumbled over the frozen ground, her smallest child—a baby—in her arms. Her three other children struggled along behind her, with the oldest—seven years old—pulling the tiny wooden wagon containing their belongings. Ragged and torn burlap was wrapped around their feet, providing the only protection for them, since their shoes had long since disintegrated. Their thin, tattered jackets covered their thin, tattered clothing, providing their only protection against the cold.

Soon the snows came, and the days and nights became a nightmare. In the evenings she and the children would try to find some kind of shelter—a barn or a shed—and would huddle together for warmth, with a few thin blankets from the wagon on top of them.

She constantly struggled to force from her mind overwhelming fears that they would perish before reaching their destination.

And then one morning the unthinkable happened. As she awakened, she felt a chill in her heart. The tiny form of her three-year-old daughter was cold and still, and she realized that death had claimed the child. Though overwhelmed with grief, she knew that she must take the other children and travel on. First, however, she used the only implement she had—a tablespoon—to dig a grave in the frozen ground for her tiny, precious child.

Death, however, was to be her companion again and again on the journey. Her seven-year-old son died, either from starvation or from freezing or both. Again her only shovel was the tablespoon, and again she dug hour after hour to lay his mortal remains gently into the earth. Next, her five-year-old son died, and again she used her tablespoon as a shovel.

Her despair was all consuming. She had only her tiny baby daughter left, and the poor thing was failing. Finally, as she was reaching the end of her journey, the baby died in her arms. The spoon was gone now, so hour after hour she dug a grave in the frozen earth with her bare fingers. Her grief became unbearable. How could she possibly be kneeling in the snow at the graveside of her last child? She had lost her husband and all her children. She had given up her earthly goods, her home, and even her homeland.

In this moment of overwhelming sorrow and complete bewilderment, she felt her heart would literally break. In despair she contemplated how she might end her own life, as so many of her fellow countrymen were doing. How easy it would be to jump off a nearby bridge, she thought, or to throw herself in front of an oncoming train.

And then, as these thoughts assailed her, something within her said, “Get down on your knees and pray.” She ignored the prompting until she could resist it no longer. She knelt and prayed more fervently than she had in her entire life:

“Dear Heavenly Father, I do not know how I can go on. I have nothing left—except my faith in Thee. I feel, Father, amidst the desolation of my soul, an overwhelming gratitude for the atoning sacrifice of Thy Son, Jesus Christ. I cannot express adequately my love for Him. I know that because He suffered and died, I shall live again with my family; that because He broke the chains of death, I shall see my children again and will have the joy of raising them. Though I do not at this moment wish to live, I will do so, that we may be reunited as a family and return—together—to Thee.”

When she finally reached her destination of Karlsruhe, Germany, she was emaciated. Brother Babbel said that her face was a purple-gray, her eyes red and swollen, her joints protruding. She was literally in the advanced stages of starvation. In a Church meeting shortly thereafter, she bore a glorious testimony, stating that of all the ailing people in her saddened land, she was one of the happiest because she knew that God lived, that Jesus is the Christ, and that He died and was resurrected so that we might live again. She testified that she knew if she continued faithful and true to the end, she would be reunited with those she had lost and would be saved in the celestial kingdom of God. 8

From the holy scriptures we read, “Behold, the righteous, the saints of the Holy One of Israel, they who have believed in [Him], they who have endured the crosses of the world, … they shall inherit the kingdom of God, … and their joy shall be full forever.” 9

I testify to you that our promised blessings are beyond measure. Though the storm clouds may gather, though the rains may pour down upon us, our knowledge of the gospel and our love of our Heavenly Father and of our Savior will comfort and sustain us and bring joy to our hearts as we walk uprightly and keep the commandments. There will be nothing in this world that can defeat us.

My beloved brothers and sisters, fear not. Be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith.
I declare that God lives and that He hears and answers our prayers. His Son, Jesus Christ, is our Savior and our Redeemer. Heaven’s blessings await us. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Sunday, February 1, 2026

Strength and Life Each Day

At church today, right after the counselor in the bishopric, Bro Schmidt, sat down, like 5 people rushed up to the stand to share their testimonies and it was busy to the end. It was a full meeting and my heart was touched. I had thought of what I could testify of, but I ended up staying in my seat and allowing others to share their testimonies. I decided I'd share mine here after I got home, so here I am, and here is my testimony today ~

I was touched by the opening hymn we sang at church, "In Fasting, We Approach Thee" (Hymn 139) especially in verse two where it says:

Through this small sacrifice, may we 
recall that strength and life each day
are sacred blessings sent from thee
fill us with gratitude we pray.

On Friday night as part of our family scriptures, my family and I revisited a story shared by President Monson in a book we read last year called "Consider the Blessings". On pages 62 - 66 is a story called "I do not know how I can go on". President Monson briefly shared this story in his October 1994 message and also mentioned it in his April 2009 talk "Be Of Good Cheer". In the book, he tells of a widow from Prussia who, after World War II ended, had to walk 1000 miles to Germany with her four small children. Her children all passed away on their trek, from starvation and the winter cold. Her first child that died was her 3 year old little girl, and we had our little Katharine asleep on Natalie's lap in front of us to be our visual aid of that. The mother dug the child's grave with the only tool she had, a tablespoon. Next her seven-year-old son and five year-old son passed away. Again she dug their graves with the spoon. When her last child died, a small infant in her arms, she dug a grave in the frozen earth again, but this time the tablespoon was gone, so she dug into the frozen earth with only her frozen fingers. In the account from the book "Consider the Blessings", it says:

Her grief welled up as she knwlt beside the little grave, considering all she had lost. She wondered, Was it worth going on? How could she bear it, with her heart literally broken? Others were choosing to end their lives rather than continue in such despair. As she considered the awful possibilities for ending her own life, something within her said, “Get down on your knees and pray." She ignored the prompting until she could resist it no longer. She knelt and prayed more fervently than she had in her entire life. "Dear heavenly father, I do not know how I can go on. I have nothing left, except my faith in me. I feel, Father, amidst the desolation of my soul, and overwhelming gratitude for the atoning sacrifice of my son Jesus Christ. I cannot express adequately my love for Him. I know that because He suffered and died, I shall live again with my family. Because He broke the chain of death, I shall see my children again and will have the joy raising them. Though I do not at this moment, wish to live, I will do so, that we may be reunited as a family and return together to Thee." When she finally reached her destination of Karlsruhe, Germany, she was in the throes of starvation, but in a church meeting shortly there after she bore witness of her happiness and her testimony of the resurrection of Jesus Christ. She had no doubt that if she remain true to the gospel, she would be reunited with her loved ones in the celestial kingdom of God.


(Photo credit, just a pic via google of what I imagine the end of her journey looked like)

With all the problems that seem to overwhelm us in the world today, it has helped me to think of all that people have endured in the past. Despite the challenges we face, like those who have gone before us, we can find joy as we look to Christ. He will strengthen us. "Strength and Life each day are sacred blessings from above." We can show gratitude for the blessings He offers. Verse three of the opening hymn at church: 

And may our fast fill us with care
For all thy children now in need.
May we from our abundance share,
Thy sheep to bless, thy lambs to feed

I am really trying to focus this year on gratitude, I’ve been reading the Book of Mormon looking for times when gratitude is expressed and praise and thanks to the Lord is given. As I’ve been searching for that in the scriptures, I’ve also been searching for that daily in my life. I’ve been writing down five things at the end of every day that I’m grateful for, last night I finished my gratitude for just a small portion of the blessings I noticed in January, and I really think that gratitude is such a key to happiness and peace and trust. I've also begun to see that humility is the beginning of gratitude - humility and realization of how much we depend upon Christ. In the story that President Monson shared, that sister showed gratitude for Christ - that was something that she came to find in her wrenching trial of losing her husband and children and walking with the Lord for 1000 miles. We have journeys to go on as well, and may we also be prompted to pray, as she prayed, and let the spirit testified to us of the reality of the Savior's resurrection. We can be with our loved ones again because of Jesus Christ. When we are in the depths of despair, He is there and He understands and He can lift us. He can help be humble in our hard trials, and that will lead us to trust and have faith in Him. 

A quote shared in the Follow Him podcast by Elder Eyring "Remembrance and Gratitude" from October 1989:

Remembrance is the seed of gratitude, which is the seed of generosity. Gratitude for the remission of sins is the seed of charity, the pure love of Christ. And so God has made possible for you and me this blessing, a change in our very natures: “And the remission of sins bringeth meekness, and lowliness of heart; and because of meekness and lowliness of heart cometh the visitation of the Holy Ghost, which Comforter filleth with hope and perfect love, which love endureth by diligence unto prayer, until the end shall come, when all the saints shall dwell with God.” (Moro. 8:26.)

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